Byron Bay here we come

After two glorious nights in Bellingen - still talking to myself about not keeping my word and going to Heartland Retreat (in Queensland - 2 hrs north from Brisbane and about 8 hours from Bellingen) - I um and ah ... and then decide 'stuff it - i'm driving there today - I will just have to be late). Still feeling very raw about Paul and the whole baby thing - I set off ... more singing to be done and a bit of Eckhart Tolle's the Power of Now on my ipod .... (via fm) ... unbelievable. I had been wanting to go to byron for so long - and since I am now going to the jillaroo school next MOnday I feel like going to heartland as well is compromising my 'free spirit time'.... I watch as Byron bay comes and goes ... then figure I"d better call Les and tell him, I actually am coming contrary to the email I sent you two days ago).... \

50 ks past Byron, I talk to Les, and he wasn't all that friendly about it, then the phone dropped out. Feeling raw, and rejected, I turned off teh highway and called Pual in tears ..... man waht a struggle I can make things some times!!!! We talked it thorugh, and I thought, stuff it, i don't like that guy, Im not driving another 4.5 hours just to be trapped in a retreat for 5 days, pining for Byron!!

So I did a u-ey, and drive the 50 ks back to Byron.

what a synchronous series of events.

On arrival at Byron i saw all the traffic and kids on school holidays and thought - i'm leaving ....

I talked myself through it, then thought, no, park the car, go for a wander, connect in some way, then decide.

So I did. Lo and behold, around the corner, was Abruxas (??) bookshop. New age, and a gorgeous welcoming so friendly woman behind hte ocunter . I instantly befriend her and she tells me 'you want to go to Belongil Beach HOuse'. I love it, I love it. That's where I stayed for months, before decideing to stay here for good!!

She also tells me about her natural horsemanship book after I share about my upciming jillaroo thingy.

Well, she was on the money... the beach house just slightly out of town is perfect! A whole beautiful double room tom mylself, and an ensuite. All for $80 a night, and 1 min walk from the beach. It even has its own cafe with great coffee. What else could a girl need?

I go in and book a 1 hr float, and 1 hr massage at the pamper place, also in the grounds of my beach house! For 7p. Then I make my way back to the bookshop, where the promise of a Tarot reading awaits. I am feeling raw, teary, ungrounded, like i want a home, and wondering what I am doing here! Awful awful feeling.

Well, my tarot experience was soooo good. Really healing. Then man, the float and this wonderwoman of a massage therapist ... my god, sh ewas walking on me!! She was so so so soo amazing. I am just speechless.

I leave, floating along, my body feels like it has let go of everything. Absolutely everything. All the energy has been moved through and out of me, and what is left is a grounded, present, and happy soul.

I just went back to the room adn enjoyed my solitude. And the most perfect nights sleep I have had in a looooong time.